Hey, Feisty Ones!
I’m going to be honest with you. I have no idea what to write about for this diary. I haven’t been challenged this semester in my classes, and it’s giving me a lot of time to think.
Thinking can be your best friend or your worst enemy. I find myself overthinking the things that are not important, and the things that are, I give little thought to. I don’t understand why I’m like this.
It’s as if I set myself up for failure before I even begin.
I believe that a part of me is addicted to pain. Since it’s the only thing I’ve known and if anything threatens to change that, my brain goes wild. I make up scenarios that haven’t even happened, I assume the worse outcome, and I cause others around me to be uncomfortable because I cannot turn it off.
And this is my normal.
I hold everything inside and stay angry and sad about it for weeks, months, and years, until it fills and I have a full-on mental breakdown. Then, I’m good for a few weeks until it starts again.
I need to learn to think about the things that matter and enjoy the time that I have on this earth.
If any of you can relate to this, like this post and leave a comment, and thank you all so much for the support.
I hope you all have a great day, and as always, stay feisty.
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I so understand how you think. I find myself just at times overthinking or giving my power away to pain and hurt that have happened a long time ago. I am trying to put it down in a story but find myself just feeling overwhelmed. I need to learn to put it on paper so that later I can deal with it or write about it. Sometimes pain can guide you to a great novel. At least that is what I think.